Dogma

Going back to school makes everyone goes nuts after a long break, but for some reason I was a bit excited to go back today. As my AP Biology teacher began class I understood why. God shows me His light through even a class.

Dog-ma: an official system of principles or tenets concerning faith, morals, behavior, etc., as of a church.

This word confused me big time when my teacher began but slowly I understood. In all honesty when he started the class off with a word that makes no sense I got pretty crabby. I zoned out of the Biology talk when things began to light up my interest about my faith.

All of a sudden my teacher begins talking about how there are distinctions between metal and wood. As far as we know metal has never been alive where as wood has. 

Wood has DNA so it is alive. Understanding and accepting God's love is what makes us alive. When we enter into His presence we become filled with the holy spirit and truly live for the first time.
Metal is not alive because it doesn't have DNA. Those who do not understand nor accept God's love are caught in the haze of the "real world." 

My teacher went on to tell us that the nonliving things such as metal that have no genetic information do not make proteins. Those people who have not been shown God's love and grace don't have the info they need to pursue God. I have been set in my life to have the genetic information so that I can pursue God and his love for me. This is why we go out and tell others about God's love and we live in it day to day so others can become alive in His love. DNA makes proteins. Knowledge of God's love makes us live. 

The difference in God's love than in metal and wood is that us as the brothers and sisters in Christ can help others live. Where as, wood can not go help metal get genetic info. WE HAVE HOPE. Having my teacher also go into breaking down a word so he can talk about scribes in the Bible was God shaking me say this was for me.

Maybe it is easier to look at it in a simpler way. 


Wood has DNA and we have God's love so we are alive. Metal has no DNA and some people don't have God's love so they are not truly living. Although people that are not living still has hope to be shown God's love. Sadly, metal can not be shown DNA.


Does your head hurt?

Yup, I am a Biology nerd but also a nerd for my God's love and everything He does to help us experience it. I may have missed some of bits of information through out the class period because of my deep thought process but I will learn it. God has a plan and what He did today in 3rd period was show me why I sit in that igloo of a building for 7 hours a day, so I can continue pressing up the mountain.

Why turn back then?

It's been a while. It's been a crappy while. I tripped and fell in the past month and a half and proceeded to continue rolling this whole time. I went to Colorado for the Peru Cru reunion though. On Thursday, December 29th I left at 6 in the morning and spent up until this past morning with 9 out the 12 members that helped show me God is real for the first time in my life. For the past 6 months December 29th was all I could think about but just like any other day; it came and went. Yet, the day was different, along with the others since than. I was able to grow and be encouraged in my faith. I was able to be understood. 

I didn't want to go in all honesty. I had fallen. Would all of them still include me in the "real world"? Would they see and be disappointed that I had fallen back?

Those questions that threw me for a loop were the work of the devil, bringing me down.

The past 4-5 days were amazing. I experienced so much, mountains, ice skating, and the love that conquers the "real world". This is my conclusion.

"God, you hold me and guide me. My life is in your hands. You reign over all. I don't know much about theology and my memorization skills are very crappy. You taught me so much just in 4 days. I am slowly going up the mountain. With your love I am going to grow into freedom. Continuing to seek you, I will pour love into what I do. Please help keep me awake and alive. YOU ARE REAL! I have felt your presence. Feeling your presence brings you into my heart and I will seek you. You forgive me and welcome me back with loving arms. I'm not sure if this is it but I will accept this grace and forgiveness. In no way am I deserving of this except through my savior, Jesus Christ.

'He loves you more than anything. My son was tempted but did not fall into it because of his love for you. You are new and forever loved. My love never ends, it shines on. Daughter, I love you and will carry you through this. Remember the truth. Continually search for it.'

With Love,

Yahweh

Daddy, I trust you with what is to come. You changed me through the Peru Cru. I love them all so much, it scares me at times. But I know that it is also you in us all that brings us together in such a way that glorifies you beautifully. I would not know these wonderful people if one year and one day ago I wouldn't have e-mailed the lady at AIM. I looked for you and you showed yourself. Thank you. So here is to a good 2012. I will continue climbing the mountain. Only you know what is around this upcoming corner and the next and the one after that. My first full year of knowing your love. :)"

All I know right now is that I want to remember this blog, remember my time in Colorado but more importantly remember why I have pursed God. His love brings me to life. I love Him with all my heart. So as the song "Find My Own Flame" goes... "I don't want to ride on somebody else's passion. I don't find that I am just dry bones. I want to burn with unquenchable fire, deep down inside, see it coming alive." I start new. I am going to meet my daddy, my God. I am going to enter in and get personal. As much as it freaks me out, I know that He loves me and that He has called me for something bigger than myself. Why turn back then?